A Year in Review: It Opened My Eyes

 

 

Wow! What a ride 2018 was, and 2019 shows no signs of slowing down. I feel for most people, including myself that 2018 was maddening, depleting, and forceful. The cosmos wreaking havoc on our personal and professional lives. I am happy to say that I did make it out unscathed (and I hope you did too). I noticed when I started this process that the journey was not going to be easy; and although it had its happy moments (but when you’re living in the moment) — you can become jaded on the bad and overlook the good– until the year passes and you are looking at “YOUR YEAR IN REVIEW“.

To recap, my real soul-searching journey began back in February 2018; I broke up with my boyfriend of 15 years and moved to a different city, was working on my capstone for my BA, finishing my yoga teacher training and working full-time! And when I look back on it now, I don’t even know how I managed to handle ALL the adjustments and transformations that was happening (good, okay and bad) without falling flat on my face (like I wanted too). Internally, it was hard, it was horrible and there was times where I just wanted to quit everything and hide under a rock. Externally, it was all smiles and life was grand.

Remember when I said, February was when my real soul-searching journey began? Here I was going through a yoga teacher training, and I was NOT living, speaking, or believing in my truth. I felt like a TOTAL FRAUD. I was a complete mess on the inside, but still showing up to the training, and listening to one of the most influential people I have met in my life. Silently, I would sit on my mat and as she says “in your shit” and work through my discomfort and battered soul, trying to be optimistic about the future. I discovered and uncovered so many different layers about myself that I will forever be thankful for.

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Let’s fast forward a few months, I graduated from yoga teacher training (feeling more like I am working through my fire and incorporating each path of yoga accordingly) and from school with my BA. It was amazing, I felt accomplished and at this point I was beginning to appreciate change a little bit more as I was working through my shit. I began to feel this momentum build like I want more change. And for the longest time I would always see quotes that if you are not happy with something change it, quit it, leave it or move it. So, I began to adopt that philosophy (perseverance) and started with my job. No work/life balance. So, I quit. Toxic friendships. leave it. Car. Changed it.

And it was then. That I realized I had the power to basically do what I wanted. I was not limited except for the ones I have created. I was loving the possibilities that I was creating for myself and it gave me a unparalleled outlook on life. The best part was I begin teaching for the studio I graduated from, I started my graduate degree and even found an amazing new job!

When I reflect back on the year, what I saw as bad turned out to be actually in the best interest, and what I thought was good, well didn’t really end up serving me well in the end. But, the greatest thing about it all is that it led me back to what I enjoyed it most. Writing. I am happy to be back and sharing my journey.

 

Hope you gain a new insight, routine, perspective or simply just knowledge from Candidly Candace to share with those special in your world as I do in mine.

 

 

As always,

Xo,

CC

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Happiness is a Journey, not a Destination

Today, is a day of deep reflection. I am excited and blessed to be at the point I am in my life but something is yearning for more. When I look at my recent accomplishments, I feel one would chuckle a disbelief as how I could feel this way. Well, let me tell you it not so much acquiring the things that we most desire, but rather once we obtain those things we want it no longer seems as appealing as it did when we didn’t have it.

I don’t expect to have the all the answer at one time, and I am sure I should be enjoying the “freed up” schedule. However, I am not. I am looking to dive right back into the comfortable & familiar, as much as I wanted to stray away from it. So, I ask myself, what am I afraid of? What am I scared of?

I guess, one would think the unknown? But, the unknown looks so adventurous and mysterious why wouldn’t I want this path? Why wouldn’t I want a clear schedule and a do what the f! I want, at any giving time? No textbooks, no nagging, no stress just a careless stress free living for a year or so?

These questions I have often pondered since I knew I was going to have a clear schedule eventually. And as anyone imagine it was filled with beach ,trips and hanging out gazing at the stars.

 A previous professor once said, “that you may feel a sense of emptiness, once you realize that you are no longer striving for purpose, you tend to  have a moment of what now? When you realize that the intended purpose was not the real purpose at all, yet you made it your center of reality. “

So, I say to the unknown or unfamiliar, as much as I want to run back and hide. I want to embrace this new chapter of my life. They say, you cant read the same book expecting a different ending..

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Share your thoughts!

Xo,

CC

 

Change the Thought & the Feeling Must Go!

Happy Thursday Everyone!

To my northeast people, hope you are enjoying this snow day (if you were lucky!). We are 4 days into 2018! How has your year started out? I must say, that I am looking forward to this new chapter! The Wolf Super Moon, that we recently had came about with a lot of change, inspiration and courage! Hopefully, you were able to set somethings in motion during that time, as it is a great time to start something new (hobby, beginning/ending or change!).

Although, I have set intentions for this coming month. I am excited and patiently waiting for the end of my current chapter. The excitement and anticipation that I have for this coming year has riddled me with anxiety but positively. And we all love positive anxiety!

I believe that the complexity of a thought, can give us either a good or bad outcome. Yet, the simplest thing we must do, is change the feelings that comes with our thoughts. If we have bad thoughts, we create bad intentions and with that we become crippled with bad emotions. I realized this over the last few weeks, I could either be upset or sad about my current situation or I can look at it with a fresh set of eyes and see the positive manifestations that could happen! And those positive manifestations are endless.

When we continue to walk around with bad energy, we see the world as if it is out to get us. When we let the energy flow as it should, we see the world with clarity and joy in all things. We must be able to let go and trust our journey! When we hold on to negativity we become a burden to ourselves and to those around us. And no one wants to be around a negative Nancy!

At the end of day, we must know that 1. everything will be fine and 2. that no one has everything figured out. And if you do, you’ve lost your peace, as you are not letting live and let live happen!

Be free and be focused, laugh when you feel like crying and change your thoughts! Don’t let negative people, things or words change your mood. Accept it, Acknowledge it and Let that shit go! Everyday we are learning or processing something new, why not let that thousand and one thing you learn — is to be positive?

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Move forward with confidence and courage in 2018!

“The moment I let go of it was
The moment I got more than I could handle
The moment I jumped off of it was
The moment I touched down”

Xo,

CC