A Year in Review: It Opened My Eyes

 

 

Wow! What a ride 2018 was, and 2019 shows no signs of slowing down. I feel for most people, including myself that 2018 was maddening, depleting, and forceful. The cosmos wreaking havoc on our personal and professional lives. I am happy to say that I did make it out unscathed (and I hope you did too). I noticed when I started this process that the journey was not going to be easy; and although it had its happy moments (but when you’re living in the moment) — you can become jaded on the bad and overlook the good– until the year passes and you are looking at “YOUR YEAR IN REVIEW“.

To recap, my real soul-searching journey began back in February 2018; I broke up with my boyfriend of 15 years and moved to a different city, was working on my capstone for my BA, finishing my yoga teacher training and working full-time! And when I look back on it now, I don’t even know how I managed to handle ALL the adjustments and transformations that was happening (good, okay and bad) without falling flat on my face (like I wanted too). Internally, it was hard, it was horrible and there was times where I just wanted to quit everything and hide under a rock. Externally, it was all smiles and life was grand.

Remember when I said, February was when my real soul-searching journey began? Here I was going through a yoga teacher training, and I was NOT living, speaking, or believing in my truth. I felt like a TOTAL FRAUD. I was a complete mess on the inside, but still showing up to the training, and listening to one of the most influential people I have met in my life. Silently, I would sit on my mat and as she says “in your shit” and work through my discomfort and battered soul, trying to be optimistic about the future. I discovered and uncovered so many different layers about myself that I will forever be thankful for.

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Let’s fast forward a few months, I graduated from yoga teacher training (feeling more like I am working through my fire and incorporating each path of yoga accordingly) and from school with my BA. It was amazing, I felt accomplished and at this point I was beginning to appreciate change a little bit more as I was working through my shit. I began to feel this momentum build like I want more change. And for the longest time I would always see quotes that if you are not happy with something change it, quit it, leave it or move it. So, I began to adopt that philosophy (perseverance) and started with my job. No work/life balance. So, I quit. Toxic friendships. leave it. Car. Changed it.

And it was then. That I realized I had the power to basically do what I wanted. I was not limited except for the ones I have created. I was loving the possibilities that I was creating for myself and it gave me a unparalleled outlook on life. The best part was I begin teaching for the studio I graduated from, I started my graduate degree and even found an amazing new job!

When I reflect back on the year, what I saw as bad turned out to be actually in the best interest, and what I thought was good, well didn’t really end up serving me well in the end. But, the greatest thing about it all is that it led me back to what I enjoyed it most. Writing. I am happy to be back and sharing my journey.

 

Hope you gain a new insight, routine, perspective or simply just knowledge from Candidly Candace to share with those special in your world as I do in mine.

 

 

As always,

Xo,

CC

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Happiness is a Journey, not a Destination

Today, is a day of deep reflection. I am excited and blessed to be at the point I am in my life but something is yearning for more. When I look at my recent accomplishments, I feel one would chuckle a disbelief as how I could feel this way. Well, let me tell you it not so much acquiring the things that we most desire, but rather once we obtain those things we want it no longer seems as appealing as it did when we didn’t have it.

I don’t expect to have the all the answer at one time, and I am sure I should be enjoying the “freed up” schedule. However, I am not. I am looking to dive right back into the comfortable & familiar, as much as I wanted to stray away from it. So, I ask myself, what am I afraid of? What am I scared of?

I guess, one would think the unknown? But, the unknown looks so adventurous and mysterious why wouldn’t I want this path? Why wouldn’t I want a clear schedule and a do what the f! I want, at any giving time? No textbooks, no nagging, no stress just a careless stress free living for a year or so?

These questions I have often pondered since I knew I was going to have a clear schedule eventually. And as anyone imagine it was filled with beach ,trips and hanging out gazing at the stars.

 A previous professor once said, “that you may feel a sense of emptiness, once you realize that you are no longer striving for purpose, you tend to  have a moment of what now? When you realize that the intended purpose was not the real purpose at all, yet you made it your center of reality. “

So, I say to the unknown or unfamiliar, as much as I want to run back and hide. I want to embrace this new chapter of my life. They say, you cant read the same book expecting a different ending..

#whatareyouafraidof?

Share your thoughts!

Xo,

CC

 

Change the Thought & the Feeling Must Go!

Happy Thursday Everyone!

To my northeast people, hope you are enjoying this snow day (if you were lucky!). We are 4 days into 2018! How has your year started out? I must say, that I am looking forward to this new chapter! The Wolf Super Moon, that we recently had came about with a lot of change, inspiration and courage! Hopefully, you were able to set somethings in motion during that time, as it is a great time to start something new (hobby, beginning/ending or change!).

Although, I have set intentions for this coming month. I am excited and patiently waiting for the end of my current chapter. The excitement and anticipation that I have for this coming year has riddled me with anxiety but positively. And we all love positive anxiety!

I believe that the complexity of a thought, can give us either a good or bad outcome. Yet, the simplest thing we must do, is change the feelings that comes with our thoughts. If we have bad thoughts, we create bad intentions and with that we become crippled with bad emotions. I realized this over the last few weeks, I could either be upset or sad about my current situation or I can look at it with a fresh set of eyes and see the positive manifestations that could happen! And those positive manifestations are endless.

When we continue to walk around with bad energy, we see the world as if it is out to get us. When we let the energy flow as it should, we see the world with clarity and joy in all things. We must be able to let go and trust our journey! When we hold on to negativity we become a burden to ourselves and to those around us. And no one wants to be around a negative Nancy!

At the end of day, we must know that 1. everything will be fine and 2. that no one has everything figured out. And if you do, you’ve lost your peace, as you are not letting live and let live happen!

Be free and be focused, laugh when you feel like crying and change your thoughts! Don’t let negative people, things or words change your mood. Accept it, Acknowledge it and Let that shit go! Everyday we are learning or processing something new, why not let that thousand and one thing you learn — is to be positive?

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Move forward with confidence and courage in 2018!

“The moment I let go of it was
The moment I got more than I could handle
The moment I jumped off of it was
The moment I touched down”

Xo,

CC

 

 

A Toast To the New Year!

Hello and Happy Saturday!

This is our last Saturday of 2017!

I hope that there has been new intentions set for 2018! Make them manageable, meaningful and attainable! Goals are great but don’t get so caught up in the intentions/goals that you forget why you started!

I hope that this new year brings great opportunities, challenges and change! Change is good, change is needed and change is inevitable so embrace it!

Be safe, Be happy, be you!

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I will see you next year!

Xo,

CC

#MondayMotivation : 10 Things to Be Happy About!

Happy Monday!

Monday’s are hard! Now,  its colder out and darker earlier,  long lines and holiday shopping; I think we all need a little boost to make it through until the new year motivation hits! I wanted to start this week with a gratitude list! I often do this for yoga teacher training and I must say that putting the pen to the paper is a lot easier than raddling them off in your head. The pen to paper idea is fun as you can look back days, weeks or even years from now to see if you were grateful for repeated throughout each day, week or month.

The list does not have to take up to much of your time (if you don’t want it too). You can bang it out in the morning, throughout the day or for the previous day. You can start with 5 and then work your way up to 10 or even 15-20!

But let’s do baby steps!

Start with five, until you find your rhythm, because with any new routine it takes a minimum of 21 days!

Let’s get started ( I will start with 10 today):

  1. Meditation
  2. Music
  3. Family (had a really nice weekend with my sister, mom and dad. Doesn’t happen to often but when it does, I feel blessed)
  4. Morning Talks
  5. When I clear my email by the end of the day! 🙂
  6. When I meal prep! (Helps me start the week off in a positive way and I feel better)
  7. Downtime at work (usually not a lot but 10 minutes is good for a nice refresh)
  8. Monday night Yoga Teacher Traning
  9. Lattes
  10. Sleep

Of course answers will differ, and you may think that what you wrote down is silly or insignificant. But, it is not. It actually makes you appreciate the small things in life that we often take for granted!

What would your gratitude list look like? #Shareyourlists!

Hope you have a wonderful Monday!

Xo.

CC

#FridayFeels: No Better Title!

Happy  Friday!

Another week in the books with 17 days until a another year in the books! Where did the year go? It seems like it was yesterday enjoying summer nights, walks along the beach and the perfectly made sangrias. Now, here we are trying to manifest the next years goals and dreams.

We always look to the new year to start habits that won’t last to the end of January or vice versa. There’s gusto in the beginning, and as soon as we sense that it is getting hard. POOF! We’re done!

What happens to the motivation? Is it the cold weather or the fact that the results we desired did not happen as quickly as we like?

This is a real motivation killer for most of us as instant gratification is part of who we are.  We sometimes forget that it takes 21 days to create/break a habit and 40 days for it to stick (give or take a few days, depending on ones personality). 

Why don’t we enjoy the process and changes that are taking place. Such as, how you feel, walk or talk.

Its great that we have goals. I think everyone should. Its a benchmark for the changes we are trying to make and the things we are trying to attain. But, the reason we often get discourage along the way, is things get hard and we begin to think maybe this isn’t the road I should be taking. Well, if that thought did come in, I probably would stop too.

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Instead, why don’t we go into the new year or bad habits to break with the mindset; this is going to be hard, this is going to suck; but I do kind of want it, So, I guess its worth it.

We obsess to much about the small things. About the things we haven’t done or things we have to do, instead of focusing on what is best for us.

This New Year, let that sh!t go! And, Just Do It!

#FridayFeels, #HaveaGoodWeekend.

Xo,

CC